Hello! I can’t believe that it will be 2014 tomorrow. This year flew by but when I look back at one year ago, it feels like 3 years ago. Every year at this time people spend time reflecting on their past year and contemplating the future and so, of course, that’s what I am doing. In short, this year was wonderful and everything I hoped for. I had a really hard time for a long time, and 2012 was downright horrible. I lost pets, had a car wreck, had to cram a full time law school schedule into a part time one, among so many other things. The highlight of 2012 was getting my dog Ella, but other than that, it was a tough year. This day a year ago I thought, “good riddance, 2012…you sucked…” and also felt an enormous amount of uncertainty and fear before the bar exam.
The earliest post I had in 2013 was here. One day in January after lunch with my boyfriend I sat in his car right outside my office…crying and telling him how enormously fearful I was. I told him if I don’t pass the bar exam, I could miss opportunities for jobs…I could have to retake it and spend many months more studying, sinking deeper into the exhaustion and edginess I felt, and not moving on with my life….I told him that I just felt this enormous burden because it was all up to me to make this year either an awesome one or another really bad one. I basically had about five very exhausting years and I just wanted it to be over.
I still stop and pinch myself every day now that normalcy has returned. I passed the bar exam…got a job, which has been going great…lost 17 of the 25 pounds I gained in law school…took a vacation, did tons of fun things with friends, got to enjoy my holidays for the first time in years, and got engaged to my boyfriend. This year was very, very good to me!
I AM very sad the holidays are coming to an end. Basically from October until now I was fully immersed in them and had a great time. I started taking my Christmas decor down last night. To get over that post-holiday sadness, I am thinking about what I’d like to do this winter. I am really hoping for a VERY snowy winter. I’d like to go snowboarding again…I haven’t gone since January, 2008. I am also looking forward to the Winter Olympics. I have this inexplicable obsession with both the summer and winter olympics. For two glorious weeks I let all my free time outside of work be consumed by televised sporting events. Whether it’s skiing, iceskating, curling, whatever, I am glued to the TV. In 2012 after my dog died, I had two weeks of nightly class, but then when it finally ended, I picked up my new puppy Ella…and the next day the Summer Olympics began. In 2012, after all I had been going through, getting my new dog and playing with her every night while watching the olympics was the first time in many months I felt happy and at ease.
Other than hoping for lots of snow and watching the olympics I really don’t have much planned for this winter. It might be good to slow down for awhile.
Anyway, I hope you have a great 2014. Happy New Year!
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